A Busy Holiday Part 2
POSTED AT 02:28 PM

Tita Karen’s Wedding
How long has it been since I last attended a wedding? Anyways… this time, I am appointed as bridesmaid.
The wedding was held in St. Peter’s Basilica (I think?) and the reception followed in…I can’t remember. But it was a nice place. Held at the poolside.
Basically I just had to walk down the aisle and sit with the other bridesmaids. That’s it. But then the wedding planner asked me to take charge of the souvenir frame. You know, the frame all the guests had to sign. So ok, at least I had something to do. Pero putek. Grabe naman kasi yung iba kung sumulat eh. 48 years bago matapos! And all that time I had to watch the others eat while I waited for the frame so I could pass it on to the next guest. FYI, I haven’t eaten since breakfast. The food was served at around 5:30 pm. Just think how loud my stomcah had been growling.
But the highlight did not come until later, when the wedding traditions were implemented. Bouquet and garter. They improvised the gig a little. The garter was attached to a piece of ribbon. Then the groom held onto it, with other pieces of garter-less ribbons. Each of the ‘bachelors’ had to take a ribbon and if they’re lucky, they’d get the one with the garter. Surprise surprise. My lil bro got the garter. I thought my gown would split open from so much laughing. Grabe kasi ako tumawa talaga. As in, parang walang bukas. So I didn’t join in the catching of the bouquet anymore.

Abi’s Christening
Ninang Debbie had given birth to an adorable baby girl she named Abigail last November. I have grown very fond of that child. My phone is ridden with photos of Abi and me.
She was christened just last december. Ninang Debbie asked me to hold Abi for a while and I thought it would be interesting to see other people’s expressions if they saw me, an obvious teenager, with a baby to be christened. Sure enough, there were scandalized looks and loud whispers when I walked into the Church.
Three words. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Christmas
Well, it was a good Christmas. Pretty much uneventful, actually. Though we did stuff ourselves full to bursting on Xmas Eve. Baked oysters, roast chicken, spaghetti…Ahh…Heaven.
But I missed my parents. A lot.

The FilmFest
December 25, Tita Guing insisted on going to the mall, despite my attempts at persuading her. So we went, initially wanting to see at least one MMFF movie. Our interest waned when we saw how ridiculously long the lines for the tickets were. And every breed in the Jologs Heirarchy was represented. It was like, the MMFF opening was also a Jologs convention of some sort. I saw this guy, wearing a visor and dark glasses indoors. I mean, come on. It’s either he’s duling or his eyes are very light sensitive. Avril wannabes. Shiny jerseys. The buhling buhling (translation: blingbling). Skimpy tops, tiny skirts and stilettos (which aren’t so bad really. IF they were in Libis. We were in SM North Edsa).
Didn’t get to watch anything. Got some fab new stuff with my Xmas loot though. Ha ha.

Tita Zon’s Wedding
Accompanied Tita to her classmate’s wedding because I wanted to check the place out (for my debut). Suddenly, I was assigned to the cord. Ate Shela, who was originally the cord girl, wasn’t feeling very well, so they asked me to take her place. Oooohkaaaay. I liked Tita’s crowd. They were fun, for adults.

Fairvew and Batangas Visit
Ninong Edwin, my priest uncle, was back from Rome and was going to hold a mass so Lola Pilar asked us if we wanted to see him. So we went. I missed Ninong Edwin. He’s a crazy guy. If not for the abito, you wouldn’t know he’s a priest. Ang gulo kasi eh.

Then off to Batangas. Went to visit Lola Nuning in Tanauan first. She said, she didn’t recognize me at first. All grown-up daw. Sus.

We went to Batangas City and our cousins asked us to go and watch a flick with them. So we had gone all the way to Batangas so we could go to….SM City Batangas. Hay nako.

And I would like to share with all of you my fantastic luck. While in the mall, my sandal strap snapped. Good thing I had money with me, and that Rusty Lopez was having a sale. I strolled in, picked out a good pair, paid for it and wore it out.

Watched Spirit of The Glass. Spooked me out, you ask? No effing way. Hello. Marvin Agustin and fear do not blend well. Marvin Agustin and pathetic, maybe. So, no I wasn’t spooked at all. But Alessandra Da Rossi’s and Paolo Contis’s characters made me laugh.

Asked Tita Mercy if she could fly back from Colorado in time for my debut next November. She said, if they got a buyer for their house, then no problem.

Had fun hanging with my cousins and talking with Tita Vivian, Tita Mercy and Lola Jane too. When I think about it, my relatives aren’t half bad.

And that about wraps up my Christmas vacation. Next Up, the first week back.
The Nymph of MTVA Whole New World

Back To School. Bleh.
POSTED AT 01:46 AM

Monday and Tuesday
Most of the teachers are probably still in vacation, so most of our classes were cancelled. Nothing to do but hang out, I guess. And also, practice the songs we had to sing for Kat’s birthday, which is on Friday. Joey and Saich asked me if I wanted to come hang with them in Albert’s apartment. I wanted to, but I had to meet up with Jas and Rica so we could choose the songs we had to sing. Kat met up with us a little later. It was good though, because the Ghorjus 4 got to be together again as a whole.

Oh, and that necklace Kat gave me? I seriously think it is a lucky charm. Hehehehe….

Wednesday
Sir Villaflores told us that Mam G won’t be coming to attend classes again So our free time extended from 9:30 am to 1:00 pm. So the Sputnik decided to go to RP. And we did. It was kind of surprising, (and very disturbing) to find a lot of people waiting for the mall to open on a weekday. I mean, didn’t they have jobs? Or didn’t they go to school or something? Didn’t they have a life? Pathetic.

Thursday
By today, I got most of my exam results. In fairness, kahit shotgun lang lahat yun, I got good marks. Nice. Parang nag-aral pero hindi. Hehe.

Had an Oops! Moment. See, I was waiting for Rica after class. Prof Sevilla already stepped out of the room, so I thought, wla ng prof. I forgot: his class is Zoology Lab. Zoo Lab always had two professors, so one of them was still in the room. I opened the door and yelled “Hoy Bading!” with gusto. Waw. Kahiya. Major hassle. Good thing konti na lang sa classmates nia ang andun. Ha ha.

Joey asked me to go and watch El Crimen Del Padre Amarro (tama ba?) with them in Albert’s place again. Shet. I soooo wanted to watch that movie, but I had practice with Rica and Jas again. Kat’s bday’s tomorrow. So no El Crimen for me. At least not on that day.

Friday
Debut ni Kat. A different story. Will elaborate on that later.

P.S. I can't believe I'm saying this but...fuck english class. Do not get me started on our prof. damn.
Everlasting Story

Another Week, Another Update
POSTED AT 12:42 AM

This week had been pretty much uneventful for me. Nothing out of the ordinary. Same old crowd, same old professors, same old school….you get the picture. Until Friday that is.

As usual the week started out with PhysEd. Volleyball. My favorite sport in the whole world. And yes, I am being sarcastic, because I effing despise volleyball. Volleyballs tend to have a magnetic attraction towards me and parts of my body that are not my arms. Like….my head for example. Or my chest. I think….no, I know I failed my practical. No surprises there. Later on, I joined the school choir. (a requirement for Theo) Joey introduced me to the other choir members who, incidentally, were from 1- 9 as well.

Chemlab Tuesday, my patience was put to the test because the procedure I was assigned to wouldn’t cooperate with me. I had to redo the process thrice before I got it right. On the positive side, Marj found her lost Zoology Protocol. She had been depressed since last Friday because of it. The thing is, Marj shows her depression in her own unique way; She shops. So by then, she had raided the Kikay Alleys of Metro Manila for brightly colored hair accessories and dangling earrings.

Wednesday, we had a report due for Theology. Marj and I spent our 2-hour break in a computer rental, trying to finish a decent report while our other groupmates went to lunch or headed home for a nap. Very thoughtful of them.

Not much happened on the early part of Thursday. Afternoon, though, was pretty interesting. Joey joined the Bencher hangout once again so let the bonding begin. I told her part of my deep, dark secret last Monday. Yep. The Crush. Stress on the word part. I couldn’t tell her the bulk of it yet. I mean, we get along great, and I like her a lot but we’re not really that close yet. And, well….I’m kind of embarrassed to admit it to her. But then Thursday happened and Bam. There went the secrecy. Now she knows. But that’s OK, I suppose. I’m sure she can be trusted. Who knows, she might even help me get rid of this stupid crush.

Friday. We had a makeup class in the morning, which was cut short because of unknown reasons. Not that I’m complaining. Anyway….All my heartaches, from past to recent, all made an appearance yesterday. First off, saw RanAi when Marj and I were on our way back to class (after re-raiding Kikay Alley, btw). Then, lunchtime, saw Slinkz outside Lovelite. Weird thing was, I wouldn’t even have noticed him there, if Rica and the Saich didn’t point him out to me. Saich said he was looking at us. Or in our general direction. Bleh. Then, weird enough, I saw the EX heading toward the Med building. What the hell would he be doing in the Med building?! (He’s taking up Engineering) Ohkhay. Biggest comeback of all was Lucky. I haven’t seen nor heard from him for….months. He was my last heartache before I graduated highschool, and one of the most painful. Bleh. We were hanging in the benches, as usual, when he passed by. I swear, all I said was hi. He invited himself over and sat down next to me without so much as a ‘paupo’. Gads, how very polite of you. But then, maybe it had something to do with the fact that we were kinda close back in HS. Then we started talking, catching up. It went on for hours. Guess what….wala na sila ng GF nia. Buen insisted that there’s a hidden agenda. He said that, of all his close HS friends….why me? I said, no way. Wala lang to. It just so happened that it was I who was there at that time. Coincidence. This was nothing. Saich said, I was going to eat my words. If he’s going to continue coming to the benches and talk to me, I think she might be right. I really might eat my words. I don’t think Saich and Buen like him at all. Who could blame them. The guy was too immature for words. Marj and Rica approves of him, though.

Later that night, we had a class dinner. Nine of my classmates were celebrating their birthdays on January, so they decided to make it one big bash. But that’s another entry. This one’s becoming too long.

Til then. Ciao.

Random Thoughts. Saich's and Mine
POSTED AT 06:02 AM

Before I narrate what happened during the class get together, I need to insert this….entry in. When I get bored I think about a lot of stuff, till my hair falls out. Literally. So here goes.

Saich tended to say things that can really make me think sometimes. Like last night, we were talking about Buen and his…err…situation. She said that she thinks Buen might not be in love with..ermm…her, and that he’s in love with the idea of being in love. Which brings me to my current thoughts. Am I in love with the idea of being in love too?

I mean, damn. None of my friends would disagree when I say that I bore them to tears with all my heart-dilemmas. And with different guys too. I, for one, know that Saich and Buenie are ready to rip my hair out if I keep on ranting about these things. In highschool, there was Lucky. Then came college, bringing with it Slinkz. And now Ran Ai. It just made me wonder…why on earth do I have intense crushes on these people? (by that I mean I’m THIS close to being in love) I mean, they’re not even THAT attractive. At least, Slinkz and Ran Ai aren’t. Lucky’s a different story, but that’s not the point. Slinkz tended to tease me to tears, and he has this weirdly stupid look. Ran Ai, I don’t know that well. And both of them are smitten by another person. Both of them have horrid fashion senses. Lucky’s good-looking. Rich. Nice taste in clothing. But the guy can use a bit (or a lot) of maturity.

It’s just that…it’s been so long since I was last in a relationship, and even that didn’t go very well. I didn’t know how to be part of a relationship, so there. So now I’m trying to find a partner, so I can correct the mistakes I have done the first time. I think. Or maybe I just watched one too many chick flicks and read one too many romance fics, and the mindset of ‘I want a boyfriend’ burned itself into my brain. Damn. That is so fucking low.

I think it might have something to do with the fact that I’m a Libra. Libras, they say, tend to, ick….yearn (not my words, I swear) for a companionship. Yeah, yeah. Horoscopes. Personality tests. Kooky business. But sometimes, they hit me real hard.

Which brings me again to another thing Saich said long ago. ‘If you’re contented with yourself, why look for a companion?’ or something along the same lines. So now I’m not only obssessed with the idea of being in love; I’m also unsatisfied with myself…..Am I really?

Do I have a right to be unsatisfied with what and who I am? Am I not enough?

I mean, I don’t think I look half bad. At least I hope not. I may not be DL material, but I manage. I have good friends who still have the patience to stick by me, so I’d suppose I’m not that bad a friend either. My parents do not complain about me. So why the hell should I be discontented with myself? I feel like I need a partner. Gads. This is sooo not normal, and this is sooo not good. This is….yuck. Cheese. I’m a fucking loser.

……

I don’t even know why I think about all these things…but I have to let them out. That’s what this journal is for anyway.

Whew.

Random Thoughts Follow-up
POSTED AT 06:09 AM

And now, I just found out two of my closest friends are now in a relationship. Way to boost my esteem.

Bleh.

Par-tay
POSTED AT 04:06 AM

Like I said, nine of my blockmates are celebrating their birthdays in January, so they made it one big bash.

Venue: Congo Grill
Time: 7:00 pm onwards
Guests: All the 1-4 people

As expected, not everyone was there, but it was fun nonetheless.

Like always, I have this problem of getting there. I'm clueless when it comes to directions. Pao said he'd pick me up at around 7pm. I hung out with Saich and the others until 6:30, figuring 30 minutes is enough time for me to go home, freshen up and get ready. I'm not THAT much of a slowpoke. I should've known Pao's time is Pinoy time; i.e., 1 hour late. He got here 8pm, right before I become really pissed off. I called Thy, and he said everyone was already there but they haven't started eating yet. Good. Kaya lang super traffic papunta dun, and Pao insisted on picking up a cake from Red Ribbon before heading there so we were REALLY late. They were done eating when we got there.

After dinner, everybody wasn't ready to go home yet. Some wanted to hang out for an inuman session at Macky's place. Others wanted to get their groove on. The rest wanted to go to Laffline. The Sputnik (that would be me and my gang) decided to go with the groove on. I love dancing. (But I don't think dancing loves me, harhar....) Went to Static, a bar/dance club in Tomas Morato. Music kinda sucked when we first got there, so we ordered a round of drinks first. (note: I really don't like beer. Ick. Panget ng lasa, but what can I do. It's the cheapest drink we can get and besides, minsan lng naman eh) Anyway, yun. Gah. I was tired of sitting on my butt, and I'm starting to get sleepy. So even though the music still sucked, I dragged some of my companions over to the dance floor to get the dancing started. Yun nga lang, ginawa ata kaming entertainers ng mga DOM dun. How can I be sure na DOM yung mga yun? Damn....they were old people with beer bellies motionlessly staring at US, a group of college girls grinding against each other. How can they be NOT dirty old men? Hehe...our guy friends were watching our backs for us. If ever things would go wrong, they'd back us up, no problem. I'd suppose that's the good thing about having guys as kabarkadas. They're friends, kuyas, daddies, dates and bodyguards rolled into one.

Anyway, we had a lot of fun, but for me, the fun had to end by midnight. Yep, I am a modern-day Cinderella. My parents are kind of protective, since both of them are out of the country. Actually, sa lagay na yan, lumuwag pa sila. Before, they won't even let me go to the mall without a chaperone.

So there. I asked Pao and Kaye if they were ready to go home. They said, mga 1am pa uwi nila. I can't afford to hang any longer so I asked Gian how to get home from there. Sabi niya hatid na lang daw niya ko. He didn't want his lady friends going home all alone at such a late hour. Sweet of him. ne? I think he'd be a good boyfriend, if his love interest, *cough*mela*cough*, would just give him a chance.

Harhar. So much for the fun time. Week after was hell. I'll write on that later. Prelims week is coming up, and I can't afford to lag.

Buhbye.

October Born
POSTED AT 01:04 PM

They say October-borns are like this. I'm October-born. Hmm..Let's see if it's true...

Loves to chat.
>>> definitely.

Loves those who loves them.
>>> who doesn't?

Loves to takes things at the center.
>>> huh?

Inner and physical beauty.
>>> maybe..?

Lies but doesn't pretend.
>>> weird but true

Gets angry often.
>>> no. at least, i don't think so.

Treats friends importantly.
>>> definitely.

Always making friends.
>>> check.

Easily hurt but recovers easily.
>>> no. i'm not easily hurt and i don't recover easily.

Daydreamer.
>>> YES! teehee...

Opinionated.
>>> kind of..

Does not care what others think.
>>> true

Emotional.
>>> uhhuh.

Decisive.
>>> am i?

Strong clairvoyance.
>>> i'd suppose...for some things..hehe...

Loves travelling, the arts and literature.
>>> big YES

Touchy and easily jealous.
>>> touchy, not really. easily jealous, maybe.

Concerned.
>>> uhhuh.

Loves outdoors.
>>> ok lang.

Just and fair.
>>> id suppose

Spendthrift.
>>> yep, that's me!

Easily influenced.
>>> no. big no.

Easily loses confidence.
>>> i honestly don't know.

Loves children.
>>> YES!

....

i'd guess 21 out of 24 isn't so bad.

Hell week ends..another one begins
POSTED AT 10:57 AM

i couldn't write much for now. I have tons of work to do. And I mean it.

Will update next week...if I survive this one.